I carry the insurance on myself and Aida. I pay a whopping $30 a month for both of us to have full medical, dental and vision. This alone makes it worth working when you look at the bottom line. Add on top of that a paycheck and it's logical why I work. Without my job, we would be out of my paycheck and have to pay close to $700 per month for the insurance coverage.
Well here's the "but". But days like today make it really hard to be a working mom. It happens more often than not that Aida cries when I leave her at daycare, however, when I come to pick her up she never wants to leave. She loves playing with her friends, especially her classmate Ky and her boyfriend Gavin (yep Meg's perfect angel and my sweet girl are betrothed). Well today she did not want to be at daycare, she wanted mommy. All day she would ask for me and cry when I wasn't there. When I came to get her she looked so sad until she saw me. Where I love the smile of happiness that I got when I arrived, I hate that she was so sad all day.
Aside from the "bad days" at daycare, there is the constant battle every evening. There is always cleaning and cooking to do, but she always wants me to play. It breaks my heart when she wants to play and I have to cook dinner (unfortunately it doesn't cook it's self and I am usually a single mom till 6:30 most nights). Because I work, I don't have the daytime to get these things done. So in a few short hours, every evening, I have to try to find the balance between my "to do" list and what my daughter needs. I do the best I can, because it's all I have.
How do you balance your life?
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