The Only Constant Is Change

 Boy is that the truth! Parenthood teaches you a lot, accepting change is Lesson #1. Pregnancy does it’s best to prepare you for the ever changing world you are about to enter. There are the physical changes obviously, but all the emotional changes will rock your world. Of course, none of this fully prepares you for the baby that’s to come. It seemed like every time I thought I had it figured out, she would go and change it all up on me.

For a long while now, Aida has been doing great with going to bed. We had the few nights of fighting (I think maybe three) in the very beginning when we were teaching her to go to sleep on her own. This was due to the fact that she started fighting me every night when I would rock her to (not)sleep! She really has done great for probably 6+ months now. Every once in a while she will have a week were she decides to cry a little at first, but then will go right on to sleep.

The last morning of our vacation in Vegas, Aida woke my mom up at 5:15 screaming as though she was scared. I thought that maybe this was just a product of being somewhere different. Although she has stayed in that room many times, it’s still not the norm. However, after returning home it happened some more. Every few days she would wake up like there was something really wrong. Of course as soon as I got to her she would snuggle into me and go right back to sleep. The only thing I can figure is that my sweet girl has now started having nightmares. She must have had a pretty bad one during naptime at daycare yesterday because she woke up screaming and hyperventilating, which of course scared her teacher half to death. I really hope this is not a start of night terrors, not something I want my poor girl to have to live with. As a mom, you often have the “mommy guilt”, anytime you do something without your child you can help but feel guilty. Now I can’t help but be wonder if this is all because we left her for 5 days. She did great while we were gone, but maybe it messed with her psyche. Talk about “mommy guilt”, I already felt bad enough leaving her behind, but now that it might have caused nightmares makes me feel really guilty!

***Time changes were always fun too! Aida has always been a schedule baby! We are a little less so now, it doesn’t have to be spot on, but we still try and stick to the same schedule. The time changes would just screw it all up! Babies, for some unknown reason, don’t seem to observe Daylight Savings Time. The Spring is easier because it puts everything forward an hour, but the Fall bites. “Falling Back” sucks when you kiddo already gets up at the crack of dawn and then suddenly wants to get up an hour before the crack of dawn. So of course I am ecstatic that the time changes this weekend!